Fellowship
We arrived there at around 8 p.m. I was with Mana Suzette and Mano Leo. We cramped ourselves in a tricycle since none of us had a ride. When we reached Chinito's (the one near Village), Mano Yuri was already there having an animated conversation with Mano Ator. Before going there, Mana Suzette and I had Batchoy and Japanese cake in one of the canteens in WMSU. We had a class with Atty. Mano Jun Liong until around 6 p.m. People started arriving and I can't clearly remember who arrived before who. People started ordering and I believe the first on the list was the Chinito's platter, two of that. Some had San Mig light, others had Cali, and for some others, Red Horse (including myself). I downed three bottles of stallion and the thinly sliced Hungarian sausages didn't escape my appetite for food for the gods. I used to bring my friends in Los Baños Hungarian sausages for pasalubong (Mr. Sausage makes the best sausages here in Zamboanga City, Gregor, penge naman ng mga sampung packs! 
Feeling close, eh di naman nya ako kilala. hehehe.). People were having discussions of sorts. Mana Emma was able to successfully corner Mano Alex and they seemed to have enjoyed talking about the Jaycees. Mano Leo's small brood seemed to have been talking about, well, there was just too many and I wasn't eavesdropping anyway. Our group, well, suffice it to say, a lot. Mana Tyne and I were a bit worried about our friend Tony. I hope she's ok now. Mana Suzette and Mana Liza were having their own chit chat as well. Then some started leaving, starting with Mano Ator (it was quite early when he left, I think he was there for just a little over an hour). While others were already leaving, some were on their way. Atty. Mano Tor and Atty. Mano Jun Liong were two of those. They came from a basketball game. 
Interestingly, I never asked how their game was or if they won in the game and who they were playing with and against. Yes, I downed three RH stallion but that even didn't loosen up the air of bashfulness around me. That was my first fellowship and it was so too for Mana Suzette, Mana Bads, Mana Gleen, Mana Jen and Mano Ator (Go POPCORN, GO!). I don't know if it was just me but somehow, I felt like I was in a bar surrounded by a band of strangers. Albeit their faces were familiar, albeit their hands I shake every time I chance upon them in school, they are mostly still strangers to me. I tried, I tried to blend in, I tried to have my share of reaching out. But I guess it was still wanting. This is probably normal. I think trying too hard to blend in, trying to hard to feel that I belong, trying this hard is not healthy, it simply is trying too damn hard. I expected this to happen, for me to feel like I don't belong. I fear that I might not be liked, I might no fit in after all. I guess I must not force things to happen. I'll let time take its course and let things happen naturally. And I hope this happens soon enough (there I go again, pushing too much).
We arrived there at around 8 p.m. I was with Mana Suzette and Mano Leo. We cramped ourselves in a tricycle since none of us had a ride. When we reached Chinito's (the one near Village), Mano Yuri was already there having an animated conversation with Mano Ator. Before going there, Mana Suzette and I had Batchoy and Japanese cake in one of the canteens in WMSU. We had a class with Atty. Mano Jun Liong until around 6 p.m. People started arriving and I can't clearly remember who arrived before who. People started ordering and I believe the first on the list was the Chinito's platter, two of that. Some had San Mig light, others had Cali, and for some others, Red Horse (including myself). I downed three bottles of stallion and the thinly sliced Hungarian sausages didn't escape my appetite for food for the gods. I used to bring my friends in Los Baños Hungarian sausages for pasalubong (Mr. Sausage makes the best sausages here in Zamboanga City, Gregor, penge naman ng mga sampung packs! 
Feeling close, eh di naman nya ako kilala. hehehe.). People were having discussions of sorts. Mana Emma was able to successfully corner Mano Alex and they seemed to have enjoyed talking about the Jaycees. Mano Leo's small brood seemed to have been talking about, well, there was just too many and I wasn't eavesdropping anyway. Our group, well, suffice it to say, a lot. Mana Tyne and I were a bit worried about our friend Tony. I hope she's ok now. Mana Suzette and Mana Liza were having their own chit chat as well. Then some started leaving, starting with Mano Ator (it was quite early when he left, I think he was there for just a little over an hour). While others were already leaving, some were on their way. Atty. Mano Tor and Atty. Mano Jun Liong were two of those. They came from a basketball game. 
Interestingly, I never asked how their game was or if they won in the game and who they were playing with and against. Yes, I downed three RH stallion but that even didn't loosen up the air of bashfulness around me. That was my first fellowship and it was so too for Mana Suzette, Mana Bads, Mana Gleen, Mana Jen and Mano Ator (Go POPCORN, GO!). I don't know if it was just me but somehow, I felt like I was in a bar surrounded by a band of strangers. Albeit their faces were familiar, albeit their hands I shake every time I chance upon them in school, they are mostly still strangers to me. I tried, I tried to blend in, I tried to have my share of reaching out. But I guess it was still wanting. This is probably normal. I think trying too hard to blend in, trying to hard to feel that I belong, trying this hard is not healthy, it simply is trying too damn hard. I expected this to happen, for me to feel like I don't belong. I fear that I might not be liked, I might no fit in after all. I guess I must not force things to happen. I'll let time take its course and let things happen naturally. And I hope this happens soon enough (there I go again, pushing too much).
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